"I
can almost see it, that
dream I am dreaming"......I know that the body achieves what the mind believes, that I won't believe it when I see it, but (like a true athlete) I have to see it to believe it. I have to envision myself finishing that marathon. I have to see myself slipping effortlessly into that smaller size. I have to believe without a doubt in my mind that I can be fit and healthy at 99 and beyond.
But sometimes that's easier said than done...."there's a voice inside my head saying 'you'll never reach it'. Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels lost with no direction. My faith is shaking. " I've been down a scary spiral the last couple of months....eight weeks.....ten weeks of trying to heal an inflamed Achilles Tendon and losing ground in my healthy eating....and then the holidays came and a wonderful "food filled" cruise and my life seemed out of control....not only did I fall off the wagon, the wagon went over the hill, the wheels came off, the bolts went flying and I tumbled down the ravine hitting bolder after bolder, pastries and cakes, gravies and fried food, frozen yogurt. I didn't know the person who was shoveling the food into my mouth...it was an ogre from my past and as hard as I tried to fight her off, I seemed helpless....but deep in my soul....in my fit and healthy soul, I knew I had to climb out of that hole.....
"But I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high. There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be a uphill battle.... Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"
And then like a demon that my healthy body created as a defense to bring me back to my senses....an ugly gastrointestinal bug attacked me and I ended up in a hospital emergency room after a night of gut and stomach wrenching elimination. They told me it was from a nasty little bug I came in contact with on an excursion into Roatan, Honduras. I choose to believe it was my body rebelling against all the nasty unhealthy food I had put into my formerly healthy body over the prior 8-10 weeks. My body had enough, it was demanding that I claw my way back up. My body was screaming....get this crap out of here! Wake up Peggy! And so slowly but surely I am getting back on track...... "Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side."
This is a lifetime work in progress.....I struggle just like you do, but I will not let myself go back to where I was..... "It's the climb... The struggles I'm facing.... The chances I'm taking. Sometimes might knock me down... But no, I'm not breaking. I may not know it but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah, Just gotta keep going ....I got to be strong....Just keep pushing on"
But sometimes that's easier said than done...."there's a voice inside my head saying 'you'll never reach it'. Every step I'm taking, every move I make feels lost with no direction. My faith is shaking. " I've been down a scary spiral the last couple of months....eight weeks.....ten weeks of trying to heal an inflamed Achilles Tendon and losing ground in my healthy eating....and then the holidays came and a wonderful "food filled" cruise and my life seemed out of control....not only did I fall off the wagon, the wagon went over the hill, the wheels came off, the bolts went flying and I tumbled down the ravine hitting bolder after bolder, pastries and cakes, gravies and fried food, frozen yogurt. I didn't know the person who was shoveling the food into my mouth...it was an ogre from my past and as hard as I tried to fight her off, I seemed helpless....but deep in my soul....in my fit and healthy soul, I knew I had to climb out of that hole.....
"But I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high. There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be a uphill battle.... Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"
And then like a demon that my healthy body created as a defense to bring me back to my senses....an ugly gastrointestinal bug attacked me and I ended up in a hospital emergency room after a night of gut and stomach wrenching elimination. They told me it was from a nasty little bug I came in contact with on an excursion into Roatan, Honduras. I choose to believe it was my body rebelling against all the nasty unhealthy food I had put into my formerly healthy body over the prior 8-10 weeks. My body had enough, it was demanding that I claw my way back up. My body was screaming....get this crap out of here! Wake up Peggy! And so slowly but surely I am getting back on track...... "Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side."
This is a lifetime work in progress.....I struggle just like you do, but I will not let myself go back to where I was..... "It's the climb... The struggles I'm facing.... The chances I'm taking. Sometimes might knock me down... But no, I'm not breaking. I may not know it but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah, Just gotta keep going ....I got to be strong....Just keep pushing on"
This week I made myself get back to eating fruit, vegetables, grains and nuts, lean meat and gave my body the water it's been craving. This week I went back to the gym and this morning I went to a spin class....I'm not waiting for the New Year to start all over again......I'm going into the New Year picking up where I left off....
Don't wait to get started or to pick up from where you left off. Yesterday you said tomorrow......well that's TODAY! Take a tiny step forward....even if it's just leaving a couple of bites on your plate tonight, even if it's choosing frozen yogurt over full fledged ice cream, even if it's just a walk around the block....take that step....don't put it off one more day. Remember these words....
".....there's always gonna be another mountain..
I'm always gonna wanna make it move...
Always gonna be a uphill battle....
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose...
Ain't about how fast I get there....
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side... It's the climb..."!
Don't wait to get started or to pick up from where you left off. Yesterday you said tomorrow......well that's TODAY! Take a tiny step forward....even if it's just leaving a couple of bites on your plate tonight, even if it's choosing frozen yogurt over full fledged ice cream, even if it's just a walk around the block....take that step....don't put it off one more day. Remember these words....
".....there's always gonna be another mountain..
I'm always gonna wanna make it move...
Always gonna be a uphill battle....
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose...
Ain't about how fast I get there....
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side... It's the climb..."!
Here take my hand, let me pull you back up, let's fight this battle together, let's push those unhealthy demons away......if I can do it, I know you can... Let me help you lace your boots up and let's take this journey together.....It's all about the climb! Let's make 2013 the year we get fit and healthy....and then stay that way for the next 30+ years! Thanks Jessie Alexander, Jon Mabe, John Shanks and Miley Cyrus for inspiring me with your words. I hope you don't mind that I used them (in part) to help me and others in our climb to fitness and good health....please let me know if there's a problem with me using the words (peggylee57@aol.com)....... and I'd love to hear from anyone else reading my blog....I'm here if you need to talk or need some encouragement
No comments:
Post a Comment
Thanks for stopping by. Hope you are committed to working on your health and fitness. Please leave a comment on this post or let me know if you'd like info on a fitness/health topic.